Sick with decisions to make. :/

Haven’t updated in a while. I guess that’s life back at home… Nothing interesting.

I’ve been sick recently, and today I finally paid a visit to the doctor’s office. (That is how desperate I was for meds.) Haven’t been in for a check up in nearly a year. And today, they decided to check everything at once because god knows when I’ll show up again. So I ended up being hooked entirely onto a machine for some sort of cardiac test, and now I’m scheduled to come back in 2 weeks for a blood test. HOPEFULLY, I will go back in two weeks.

It’s been tylenol and halls, tylenol and halls, congee, hot tea, and piles and piles of crumbled up tissue balls of snot. I don’t know what it is, but I randomly got sick Monday night. Maybe it was the sudden weather change? I don’t know. I was completely fine during dinner… and then hours later, my throat started hurting. Followed up by a clogged nose the next three nights. Sleep has been MISERABLE. And you know its bad when I get up at 6 in the morning on a day I don’t even have work! I just couldn’t fully stay asleep with a stuffed nose.

But today…hallelujah for antibiotics! I am hoping to get better by tomorrow (though that’s pretty much impossible) because I intend on not letting ANYTHING ruin my amazing 76-degree sunny weather day.

Fun times are over, and real work started today. Today, and for the next 7 days as well, I will be working consecutively between Crumbs and my internship. And today, I was finally contacted by this other company I really wanted to intern for but didn’t hear back from. But to my luck, I had already reluctantly accepted this internship I have now. So what should I do now? Do I quit my pt time job at Crumbs and manage two internships with minimal pay? Or do I give it up and just stick with my already accepted internship and continue to work at Crumbs for income? (Plus, I do enjoy working at Crumbs.) I don’t know… So many decisions to make…

If I take on two internships, and attempt to stay at Crumbs as well, I know I will be overloading myself. But if I don’t take this other internship, I feel like I will be giving up on something I really wanted and have always wanted to try. What to do… what to do…

Blah blah…and blah. -.-

I’m so tired. Woke up early for an interview…and it went okay I guess.

I’m required to send in a writing sample, in which I have none because I feel like I write like a child.

So here is my to-do list for tomorrow!
1) Laundry
2) Revise writing samples. - Ugh. It’s so hard to pull myself to get back to work when I’ve basically spent almost a year doing nada.
3) Apply to yet more internships
4) Watch my Chinese drama! – The one exciting thing that’s going on in my life right now. I’m just so excited for this new ep!!
5) Make lobster over noodles.

Sometimes I love the covers that much more.

Plain White T’s – Rhythm of Love

I love this cover of it.<3 It’s on my list of Hawaii music…along with many Taylor Swift songs too. I have this specific list of music that I can just imagine myself listening to while laying on the beach or dipping my feet in the water at the lake.

 

All I want to do is just watch Friends, eat my cupcake, read my book, and hit the haysack.

Forgot how tiring it is to do opening shift.

What the rest of the day entails for me? All I want to do is just watch Friends on TBS, indulge in my cupcake from Everything Frosted, read my book, and then pass the eff out.

^…All in which I eventually did. And now its midnight and I’m awake, and I’m torn between eating and watching a movie, or attempting to go back to bed because I have another morning shift tomorrow.

I haven’t updated in a while. Since I’ve been back, nothing too exciting has been happening on my end. Just relaxing, recovering, and desperately missing London. I seriously really, really miss it. And if I had a place to stay, I’d love to just go back and spend the summer there.

I miss Scotland too. And I wish I had still gone to Ireland.
I had Irish tourists come into the store today and ohh…it breaks me heart to know that I can’t go back with them. I love the UK. Period.

But all good things end eventually. (Or so Nelly Furtado says. And Everything Frosted said so too when their buy 5 get 1 free promotion ended. :/ ) Right now all that I am occupying my time on is
1) My job
2) Still currently seeking my next internship, in which I have an interview coming up on Monday!
3) And gym. Looking to get back into shape. I haven’t started a regular gym membership yet, but I’ve been pretty good with withholding my crave for sweets (aka calories) every since I’ve got back. It also saves me some money. (I just paid off my credit card bill too.)

A day that should have been recorded.

My first day of work back at the store went pretty well.

It was fun.

I work with a great team of people and we all get along very well. And I think I occupy myself enough for an 8 hour shift to completely fly by me. For one thing, I’m a vigorous cleaner…so I never stop. Haha, my coworkers were saying you know Linda’s back when things starts to get cleaner and everything is labeled with notes on them again.

And because I’m OCD, I decided to disassemble our espresso machine today to clean it out because there were lots of espresso grinds built up in it. And of course, being the annoying picky cleaner than I am…there is always a price to pay. I assembled the machine back incorrectly, missing a very importance piece to it. And then when I went ahead and tried to brew espresso for a customer…I realized that the piece used to hold down the pressure of the boiling water from shooting out…well, I forgot to put it back on the machine. How did I realize this? Because instead of the boiling 170 degree water being dripped down from the machine, it SPRAYED OUT and all over the place, onto the walls, and onto my face! Along with a whole bunch of coffee grinds!

I was mortified! 1) Because it literally played out like a comedy scene, where water sprayed all over my face. And 2) because I was in front of customers…but I guess I didn’t care that much, being that I’d never see them again.

My coworker (amazingly sweet person) came out to a mess, and helped me take over while I went and washed coffee grinds off my face and out of my eye! Luckily my skin didn’t burnt. I was surprised, because my manager had thought we’d have to file some sort of accident report. But I guess being that I usually shower in steaming hot water anyway, my skin was a little more prone to it? I don’t know. But I was okay. And in fact I thought it was kind of funny, though embarrassing.

Oh, and did I mention that ten minutes before that had happened, a roach the size of maybe your big toe, had jumped off the counter and crawled onto my neck?

It was truly a great day.

I went home, told the story to my parents… My mom came out with a bowl of soup for me…and I dropped it and it spilled onto the floor.

What a day!

Today is one of those days where I felt really alone.

When we were kids, it was so much easier to just call a friend out and roam the streets. Now that we’re “grown ups”, people have school, people have work, people have boyfriends and girlfriends they’d rather spend a beautiful day with instead.

I was weather watching severely for days. 88 degrees. I’ve anticipated for this day since I came back from London. I miss summer New York and I knew I just had to do something today. I even woke up earlier than usual. Whether it be just grabbing lunch, strolling through Central Park, or walking the streets of Manhattan aimlessly…I just wanted to soak in this weather with a companion.

My day on campus.

The American accent…rude people…white girl sitting across from me in the library talking about how she works with this “dumb bitch” who can’t play Draw Something correctly… I am POSITIVE I am back in the United Sates…

I’m sitting back on campus today and it’s been…kind of nice and kind of weird. Nice, because I enjoyed myself three grilled steak tacos, crunchy and with no cheese, from the only Taco Bell in Boston, on NEU campus. Nice, because I finally got to try Northeastern’s new Argo Tea Cafe, which was really cute and the service was superb. But weird because…man am I old! It’s a new generation at Northeastern, and when I walk around and see all these young and unfamiliar faces, I know my time in Northeastern has passed.

A lot of changes here and there in Northeastern. 1) The library study tables all have plasma screens on them now so people who are working on group projects can use it instead of huddling around one person’s tiny laptop. I thought that was pretty neat. Of course NEU always have the money to invest in even MORE plasma screens… 2) We now also have to swipe to have access to the library. And I think the staff suspected whether or not I was even NEU student when I had trouble figuring out how to swipe myself in. 3) Husky cards have changed. I am now the owner of an older generation of husky cards. And 4)…we now have a Northeastern food truck that sits on campus!

Beautiful day on campus! I love that our campus always corresponds so well with the season. Cherry blossoms in the spring, gorgeous autumn foliage in the fall. And that's the back of the Hungry Hungry Husky food truck that you're seeing. Lol.

Argo Tea at the library! They even serve bubble tea! I had the Iced Mate Latte.

Argo Tea menu

Despite the lack of time I’ve spent at Northeastern, I’m really proud of this school and really proud of what it has grown to be within the past few years. As much as I would love to spend my last semester abroad again, I’m looking forward to coming back on campus for my last semester.

I treated myself to chocolate chip cookies from Paradise while I was by Northeastern. One of the best places to get to-die-for chocolate chip cookies!

My first meals back in the states via Boston!

I have yet to eat a home cooked meal and drink some of my parents’ 老火湯.

But since I have been back in Boston, the food hasn’t been too shabby. For the first time ever, I decided to give Boston a chance. I know I’m a very obvious New Yorker, and I tend to give Boston the cold shoulder… But I figure its time to open myself up a bit and explore what Boston has to offer.

This is my first meal being back in Boston. It’s at my favorite Chinese restaurant, Victoria’s Seafood, near Boston University. I love eating here!

Salt & pepper veal chops, Lamb w/ bean curd in clay pot, steamed spare ribs w/ black bean sauce, and watercress w/ garlic. Yum!

For my second night, my friend and I decided to treat ourselves out for some raw oysters! $1 raw bar at Marliave’s, french cuisine.

32 oysters from Rhode Island. It was heaven.

I also ordered a chopped salad w/ chicken, avocado, asparagus, tomato, green beans, cucumber, hard boiled egg, and romaine. That is my kind of salad! Plus, I figured I'd order a salad being that I need to start my next diet. My friend had the ravioli.

And on the third night, my boyfriend and I made up for the anniversary that we missed while I was gone and we ate at the beloved Giacomo’s. Giacomo’s is this tiny, family-owned Italian restaurant in the North End, with always a line to get in. But it’s worth it because the food here is top notch! Hey, you want good food, you need to have patience.

Giacomo's open kitchen

Menu

I had a linguine scampi w/ clams. Delicious as always.

Boyfriend had the veal marsala w/ pasta on the side.

Bread, olive oil, and balsamic vinegar on the side, and a Belgian beer to top it off!

How can we go to the North End without grabbing pastries at Mike’s Pastry?

Amaretto cannoli and tiramisu. It seemed a little different this time though. :/

I’ve passed by Thinking Cup Coffee Shop many times in the times that I’ve walked by the Boston Commons in the past, but I never thought to go in. There was always so many people in there, and the dim light ambience always sort of scared me away. After London, after Monmouth Coffee, I have fallen into this obsession for coffee and coffee shops. So I knew the one thing I had to do coming back to Boston this weekend was for sure to pay Thinking Cup a visit.

Rated top coffee in Boston! I had their signature hazelnut latte, my boyfriend had a regular filtered coffee, and we shared an oatmeal raisin cookie.

The coffee was good, but disappointingly, there was coffee grind in mine, so I couldn’t enjoy it as much as I would have liked to. And the oatmeal raisin cookie…it definitely wasn’t the cookie I had my hopes up for coming back to the US. (Londoners are not very good at doing cookies either…)

On the fourth night, I cooked!

Chicken gyoza. I loved it!

Mini chicken tacos! Yum!

I came back to the US and I already hate it. -_- I hate everything about it here. The people, the emotions, the familiarity, my despair.

In the one day I’ve been back I’ve already encountered rude people. I’ve felt and heard all that I’ve missed out on, and I can already feel the anguish I so often try to run away from coming back to me. It’s all coming back. Can I please just hide and be left alone?

It’s different to be outside looking in. But to be in it. To be in it and not be able to physically avoid it. That’s what slowly kills me inside. Please try harder to not let me know. Because I don’t want to know. I don’t want to know anything because I don’t want to care. I don’t want to care but how do I help myself to not care? How do I help myself to not let things so irrelevant and needless affect me?

It’s me. I know it’s me. It’s not the country, it’s not the people, it’s not you. It’s solely me.

Day 88: My last meals in London.

In this generation, food has become a new category in photography. I wanted to document my last meals in London, as I spent most of my last week adventuring out on food. I’m going to miss this city a lot.

During my last week in London, I finally gave this popular London pizza chain a try. Pizza Express. This is the "American" classic pizza. Look at the tiny pepperonis!

On my last day in London, I had lunch in Chinatown at Dumplings Legend. Ordered steamed sticky rice in bamboo tube and a pork xiao lung bao.

Since the very beginning of this trip, I've walked by Jamon Jamon dozens of times. I knew I eventually wanted to give this place a try, as I love Spanish food. It wasn't till my return from Barcelona did I know I just had to have paella one more time. And so on our last night, my two friends and I went to Jamon Jamon for some chicken & seafood paella. A 40 minute wait well worth it!

Lunch at the airport before departure. Wagamama ramen!

It takes me last coffee in London to finally try Caffe Nero. This is an iced latte from the Caffe Nero at Heathrow airport.

Goodbye London.